"I am a series of small victories and large defeats and I am as amazed as any other that I have gotten from there to here."
- Charles Bukowski
I took a few weeks off to nurse a painful neck and shoulder pain. I felt as if I had aged 10 years in a matter of weeks with no clue what I had done to piss off my body. Every time I went out for a shoot, my neck was raging and my body was not happy. My heart was heavy with thoughts that I would have to retire early from photography. It made me depressed and I kept praying for healing. I was getting acupuncture weekly with massages now added to the mix but I still didn't feel 100%. Every time I went out for a session... the pain came back.
A couple of weekends ago, I was out on a shoot taking it real easy, trying to go slow when it clicked. My neck and shoulder were being treated as a coat hook! Two camera bodies with heavy lenses hanging around my neck and a camera bag carrying extra lenses. Ah! It all made sense. I had gotten used to carrying everything on me. Off went the extra battery pack, the camera bag, and the second camera. Once the layers came off, everything felt so much better. It was the first time in weeks that I came home from a shoot without the need to lay down and slap some Salonpas on my neck. I'm now in the market for a better camera bag and I no longer feel the need to carry more than one camera. The idea of retiring is officially out of my thoughts and I feel more energized than ever. I am so grateful to have figured it out and with knowledge, comes healing. Thank goodness! Because July is starting to get filled up!